[Filter: Sir Cameryn]
I know you must be busy, but I need to ask for a favor, if you have a minute. I know you've already done more for me than I really deserve, but I know what Cyr's doing, now, and you're the best hope I have of throwing it all back in his lying face.
I don't know why, but it feels strange to just ... talk about these things where everyone can see. So I hope you don't mind if I just write to you, instead.
It's a lot like I expected it would be, you know. As soon as Cyr got back, all of this talk started about how I was acting while we were up in Geron, and in Korin, too. Cyr wasn't even near me for most of that, I know he just made up whatever he liked. Just a bunch of things he knows Sir Liram wouldn't want to hear. About how I talk like I can't possibly lose and Sir Liram would be an idiot to pick someone else, and stories about how I kept pushing for better assignments, not following orders, doing what I liked. So.
So I'm going to write to Sir Cameryn now, like Elizabeth said I should -- I should have awhile ago, actually, but that's my fault for thinking I might not need to. He's already done so much for me, it feels wrong to ask for more.
And as stupid and annoying and awful as it is to have to deal with it, I think the thing I'm the most mad about is I didn't think of it first. Isn't that awful? I keep thinking, I had a whole week to tell whatever stories I wanted, and I didn't. But it would have worked, if I had. And it would have made all the things he's saying sound fake and petty, just like they are.
It's not all bad like that though, not at all. I know that the letter from Lord Lucius came in -- I didn't get to see what it said, but I've been checking the post every day, and I saw his seal on something just a few days ago. Sir Liram has it now, and I'm sure it was good! And I was the first one to report back on the situation up there, and that definitely counted for something. I gave a really good report, I'm sure of it, and no matter what Cyr says, he can't take away all the scouting I did. I earned that. And everyone knows that Nym and I really were flying alongside the Guard for those missions, and that Sir Cameryn trusted me to bring Captain Damien to the ship ...
And I don't think Cyr knows about the Romani. He must not have stopped in Lusent, again, on his way back -- at least not long enough to realize. So that's good news for me. I was a little worried about that, after the last time we talked.
So, I think I'm actually in good shape. All of worst things are just annoying, and if Sir Cameryn agrees to write something for me -- that'll put a lot of those stories to rest. And it'll make Cyr look really bad, too. So that's something.